*Online Premiere* In this video self portrait, a college student shares her experience with depression. “Here Goes Nothing,” by Marcelle O’Brien, is a glimpse into the head of an afflicted but charismatic young woman, compiled from a series of smart phone videos (using a camcorder app that mimics the quality of old video cameras and timestamps the footage). It’s a fascinating mix of moods and personality — tearful emotional breakdowns flow into low-key scenes of her sister and father on a casual day at the park (“certain things make me really happy, like, my fucking family”), into funny bits of O’Brien talking about her love of Mariah Carey and The Doors. When she discusses her personal background, it drifts into painful territory, first describing instances of being bullied in middle school, and then alluding to worse physical and mental abuse as a high school student. It’s a heartfelt exploration, upsetting at times, but just as often playful, and in the end, a noble statement of empathy. [Watch on YouTube - unavailable in the U.S due to music copyright issues]. (9 minutes). Director, Editor, DOP, Producer: Marcelle O'Brien. Appearances (cast): Danielle O'Brien, Kenneth O'Brien.